Giving up.

I want to give up,
But I am unable to bring myself to do so,
Because giving up means that I am weak.
It means that I've lost my passion,
It means that I've lost my desire,
It means that I've lost my strength.

I want to give up,
But I can't bring myself to say the words,
Because saying it out loud makes it more real.
It means that I'm loosing my hope,
It means that I'm loosing my drive,
It means that I'm loosing my dreams.

I want to give up,
But I can't bring myself to truly believe it,
Because believing it makes me feel like I'm betraying myself.
It means that I'm letting go of my desires,
It means that I'm letting go of my dreams,
It means that I'm letting go of my love,

It means that I'm letting go of me.