Watch it

So I was just reliving something not-so-good that I went though last weekend. What happened was that I had to recreate a logo for class purposes and we had a few choices to pick from. So I made a logo for the London Olympic 2012. What happened was that after I had finished my favorite logo, we had midway critiques. So it gets to mine, and right before we're about to move onto the next person, one classmate expresses that he doesn't like it, because he's seen it before on the internet and sure enough he pulls up a logo on Google that looks like the one I just made. Exactly like mine. What? Seriously, what are the chances that something like that happens? Gotta admit it annoyed the *beep* outta me, and I don't want to be accused of cheating and copying. Who does? Whatever. That's in the past. Last weekend I found out that people had been gossiping about me. My classmates, my friends? I found out the hard way, which was really uncool. It really hurts.

I've always known for gossip to hurt, but this really really hurt me bad. It's sad, when people wont say things upright, especially that we were friends and that we're both grown ups too. Teachers tell kids not to gossip and talk behind other people's backs, yet I think the older we get, the more we tend to 'share news' and 'have concern' for others... Why can't we face the truth and admit that it's gossip? If we have 'concerns' for others, we shouldn't have to hide it, and it shouldn't hurt the person you're worried about.

Right now? I don't know. I don't know the full situation about what happened, who was there, who said what. I don't know anything. I don't know the real intent of whoever started talking about me. I don't know any details, and I don't want to know. But know that next time you say something, be more careful of what's coming out of your mouth. Someone might just get hurt.

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Random Utterings

My bike was stolen a bit ago...

Hmm... Reactions? So many. Which one's right? No particular one I suppose. I called the cops for the first time in my life. It was interesting. The officer was nice I suppose, but really, what can I do? Nothing. Locks my doors, make sure my windows are secure. Megan moved her bike upstairs onto our little balcony. We go silent at every little sound, just in case... Just in case...

Life in America is good. Things are expensive, mostly DIYs everywhere. I bought a new bookshelf today. I'll set it up tomorrow and rearrange my room a little. I got new bedsheets too - they were on discount. I went to Albertsons not long ago - again grabbing things I need that are on discount. I got myself a nice box of swis chocolate - discount ;) I love discounts. Oh yes =D

I was at the Fringe Festival this Saturday and last from 1 to 4.30 in the afternoon doing some volunteer work with Kids Fringe. Arts and Crafts tent mostly, hot weather, either no air, or too much of it. Florida's extremely dry at the moment so everyone's praying for rain. Fringe? Hoping for no rain so that all the tents will say up and safe until the Festival is over... Which is in a few days. I love observing people, and what I saw today made me sigh, haha. A little adopted girl named Amy, going through her terrible twos. Grumpy little girl was so cute and sweet, and wanted to sleep. Loved grabbing the crayons. I bet she loves to color. Another little girl, very spoiled, only wanted her way. "My glue!" Little boy, funny laughing kid, who didn't roar back when I roared at his Tiger Face Paint. Shy thing, but very well mannered and very sweet. The Fringe has so many personalities, it's fun. There was a Thai food stall there today too. Actually, there were two. I got Pad Thai from one of them - one plate for $6. Shocking. Oh well. They spoke Thai to me - it was exciting =) I miss home, but Florida is my home now.

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Distraction

I currently feel as though I've been totally distracted from life. I've just kinda been living, going to school, going home, doing what I need to do. Don't get me wrong - I love it here. I can be myself, independent, study something I love and just meet all these people and it's amazing. But I still feel as though I'm failing in life somehow. I guess I've just been so busy. I want to please everyone, and it's hard, but it's doable right? I feel like a huge part of me wants something more. More then what I have right now. Is that a lot to ask for? I don't think I should be asking for more, over all the things I have right now but there's something missing and I can't seem to get a hold of myself. Kind of torn apart, because there's a million and one things that I can do but I don't want to do any of them. Hmmm...